Well, I've decided to go with the system that it seems that a lot of groups use and make this my main journal and just edit it every once in a while with my current status or whatever the hell is on my mind, the major stuff going on in my life (not that a lot of you probably care, but it's my journal and I put what I want in it), and so on. So, here goes nothing!!

And Thus Is My Life...
10/18/09

AND ANOTHER MAJOR GAP IN UPDATES! AGAIN!

I don't mean to have such a huge gap, it's just that nothing much happens with me. >< A few things have happened lately, though. Last week, on Saturday I took the SATs for a second time and I feel very confident about my scores. c: I'm so impatient for the 29th to get here! I want to know what I scored this time~~ DX I'M SO FRIGGING ANXIOUS ABOUT THEM RIGHT NOOOWWW~!!!

On other college related stuff, I went and took a tour of Worcester State on Thursday and I LOVED it! I want to go there soooooo bad! The campus is nice and small, seems really friendly and it's safe, which my mom was really concerned about. To make it even better, since it's a public/state college, the scholarship I got from getting advanced on the MCAS works for it and will pay for the tuition fees!!! <3! It's just so amazing!!! >w< Even if I don't get into the nursing program there, I still really want to go there!! I'm still going to an open house for Curry later today though. It was my top choice until I found out about Worcester State >>; It's still one of the top choices, but it's a private college and my scholarship doesn't apply, not to mention EXTREMELY close to home... I'd rather not have my parents still jumping down my throat even when I'm in college =A= Not to mention the price tag is WAAAAYYYYY bigger than WS >>;;;;;!

Another thing I've discovered recently: being ignored really hurts. I'd rather not say the specifics of how this occurred to me, the reason or who was doing the ignoring isn't what gets me, but more of the fact that I was ignored in general was what made me upset. I actually cried, though I am VERY embarrassed to admit it >//>; And I apologize for what happened and how much of a drama queen I was being to those who were involved, I was just upset and tired is all. I didn't mean to be such a drama queen, nor was I trying to make anyone feel bad. It's just.... it took me saying that I was crying for you guys to even notice, and that kinda hurt. >':

Also, ignorance just really pisses me off. <rant>I was listening to a remix of sorts of T.a.T.u.'s song "Show Me Love" and Rammstein's song "Mein Herz Brennt" put together on youtube and I thought I'd look up other videos to the same song. I found one with it done to Hellsing, and I thought "AWESOMENESS!" and so I clicked on it. But then at the beginning it said "skip to :25 is u don't wanna hear "fuck a sheep," which just really pissed me off because that was T.a.T.u.'s part in the beginning. I mean, it had been said on the other video, but it was in a comment. To me, saying that in the video itself just influences what people hear and ruins it, and they were being completely insensitive to the fact that they were singing in Russian and that it's not really that. What T.a.T.u. was singing means "Show me love" and I just find that insulting to them, saying that it's "fuck a sheep."

It's one thing if someone says it in a comment, not everyone is going to see that right away and that was something that someone noticed on their own. One person that had listened to the song several times even commented that they hadn't noticed that until the person who made the Hellsing video pointed it out. It's when someone says something about it ahead of time that people hear what they say it is and not for what it really is and that just pisses me off. Me? I hear something in Russian, I don't have any clue how to write it or spell it, but it means "show me love" in English; I recognized the music and the rhythm of the lyrics from the CD of T.a.T.u.'s that I have that has the song in English. I wasn't even thinking that it sounded like "fuck a sheep" until that person said it at the beginning of their video. They're free to express their opinions on what they hear, but it's nearly ruined the song for me and probably did the same for other people, and now all I hear is "fuck a sheep" while making a conscious effort to tell myself that isn't what they're saying.

GOD I HATE PEOPLE WHO ARE IGNORANT TO LANGUAGE/CULTURE DIFFERENCES! ESPECIALLY WHEN THAT IGNORANCE ALMOST RUINS A SONG THAT I REALLY LIKE FOR ME!! DX

The video that ruined it for me: [link]
I even commented on the ignorance and childishness of what they posted at the beginning and my complaints about it. My youtube username is AshyBaby2010 for those who didn't know/couldn't guess that. Other than that one "warning" at the beginning, I personally think the video is awesome. But that "warning" totally killed the video for me. >T
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Sorry if you think I'm the one being childish about it, but I'm sticking to my opinions. >T If you were a true T.a.T.u. fan, you'd find it offensive too D<

Character Voices:
Maria- Jessalyn Gilsig (Kayley from QFC)[link]
Lily- Kari Wahlgren (Attina- 00:15) [link]
Reilly- Crispin Freeman
older!Alsphonso- Christopher Daniel Barnes (Prince Eric from The Little Mermaid)
Lizzie- Catherine Zeta-Jones
Mary- Idina Menzel
Damian/Demon- Steven Blum


More to come the next time that I get more time online.

5 Personal Goals~!

1) Do well in all my classes this year, ESPECIALLY History! >x<
2) Try my damnedest to get into Org-Nu DX
3) Go see colleges and get on the ball with when the common app. is due, if I'll need an interview, a supplementary essay, or whatever for the colleges I plan to apply to.
4) Get into college PERIOD! DX
5) Get out more and learn where everything is B| It's just sad to not know after living in the same place for my whole life....
Feature of the Month!

I'm lazy and I will only do those who ask, so the feature and commentary on my favorite pieces of art shall remain for .

Three deviations of hers that I absolutely, LOVE! It was hard to decide, but I really do like these ones a lot. CB
[link] I like this one for the shading, especially on the hair and how the light is drawn in her hair and the subtle display of self injury and slight grotesqueness in her holding her missing eye. The detail is just amazing, and, I'm sorry if I sound repetitive, but especially for the hair. I'm envious, I could never hope to draw waves/curls like that so successfully or add in the light and shading in it.
[link] This one I think is so freaking cute! She did it for ~FallingStar07's contest a while back for her two characters' wedding in her story. The expressions are great, expressing their happiness but not in an exaggerated way. And the outfits are gorgeous, as are the flowers. Again, I can't emphasize enough how much I love all the detail that Skys uses, I'm envious of her skills of being able to go so deep into her art and pull it off so well.
[link] Again, I love the bloodiness and how it's not so exaggerated and, though not as much as in 37 Eyes, it's fairly subtle in that sense. It's quite outright that she's bleeding from holding the swords by the blades, but Skys doesn't make it so that the blood is just pouring out and it goes with the flow of the movements implied by the pose and how well it flows. The outfit and background design are amazing too.
All of Skys' deviations are amazing, I recommend giving her gallery a gander. I enjoyed myself looking through it and it was hard to decide what three to choose. I'd love to hear what you think of the three i chose and to discuss her other work if anyone is interested and wishes to appreciate it with me.




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